All Girls Camp [ part 1]

headed for a 4days3nights camp during the first week of holidays at OUTBAC BROGA. went on Saturday and came back on Tuesday. it was fun and awesome! *thumbs up* it was an ALL GIRLS CAMP. the camp is about PERFECTION IN CHRIST. but what do you think about PERFECTION? let's check it out!

i would probably felt regret if i didnt took part in it. but i feel proud of myself for being so active and fearless during those days. i've learnt wall climbing, kayak, making a bamboo boat and more although i was wet all the time... well, have to stop crapping now, let me show you some photos.

FIRST DAY

 gathered at FGA.

 pretty YANHUI.

 unique BOONSIEW.

oh yes, this is EVIA, who left on the second day of the camp! >:( fortunately, i get to took some photos of her. lollll

this is probably how our dorm looks like. we slept in a dorm like 24 people and 12 Double-Decker. i slept above josephine in the first day and beside boonsiew after she+evia were left. yanhui complained bout boon who was kicking her in the middle of the night. but she didnt even kicked me once as i've been overnight with her TWICE. :O idk. maybe she hates her secretly? nah, just kiddin'

 JO. 

AUDREY.

PEANUTs! we were playing captain ball and i was the first one who get wet! oh chucks!

SECOND DAY.

 gathered at the basketball court. sporty outfit on us.

 last photo with evia. 

as i said, evia went home after breakfast while jo after the session. so, just left audrey, evia, boon and I in OUR GANG. however, it's quite good for us as we dont need to be wait for the toilet so long. haha! wow, i have to tell you that it was so damn cold in that night!!! luckily i brought my jacket along... hoho! 

last, it was evia's birthday on monday, that means, the third day of camp! however, we can't managed to wish her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY at 12.00am because she was sleeping and sick! awww... instead, we did something else.

wanna know what steps we took after that and what we've done during the last two days? well, stay tuned to my blog and follow my twitter! :D

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I got so many things needa post. so be patient. 

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Proud of me

screwed up my chemistry! i got no idea how to do! everyone was busy solving and doing those questions while i was just sitting and lying there doing NOTHING! sigh... the hardest paper ever!

it was P.Sivik after chemistry paper. we all cheated during the exam. but i didn't do so. just asking for two answers only. and the teacher was like don't care at all! however, she just keep yelling "jangan bercakap" "shhhhh!"... lol! i actually studied for sivik and pjk. so i can say that Sivik and PJK were the papers i knew the much plus completely answered. even the 2nd-placed student, who was sitting right behind me, asked me what's the answer! well, i'm not trying to show off. i'm just too happy to end up the exam with happiness. :)

tomorrow's the day! i've been waiting for it to come! it's time for me to ROCK!!!

Exam week

four more days to go and i'll be off to camp! hooray! i'm so super duper EXCITED! i cant really stand the excitement during the exam fever. well,  if you felt the way i feel, I bet you'd be in as lazy as i am. Cause you will be worrying what to wear, what to bring while you're sitting for your exam. I admit I had screwed up my mid-term exam but i wont be crying for THAT as long as I'm still here. sometimes, you've got to know how to express your feeling. not thru your nerve or hurt yourself but cry (for women). this is how I express MYSELF lah. sigh. now i dont know i should tuition or not. will get in or out from the tuition center make people feel sick? to be honest, i never tuition before. never. i think i can handle those subjects since I've been doing this for 9 years. but, I'm just way too LAZY. lolll. can't blame me.

One day my patience will run out, and i will punch you in the face. Very, VERY HARD.  beware!

Little thing.

psssst... I'm back with a new blog skin!

have you forgotten about me?

Smile :)

it's a monday morning. you can clearly see our class is newly painted. our english teacher, ??? had a speech which titled "smile" during the assembly. 

"smile, can lower our blood pressure and releases stress. furthermore, it can reduce the awkwardness. smile is the cheapest medicine. it makes us healthier and happier. JUST SMILE, everything will be alright! " that was what teacher told us.


I'm good at faking smile. sometimes, i smile to hide the pain inside. And so people won't see the tears in me. Isn't it's easy? No! 


Smile is as easy as ABC, even if babies know how to do so. But for me, a 16 years old teenager, it is getting harder and everyone knows how to fake a smile, like I do. Ever since I was shifted, that's my specialty.


I prefer sitting alone than a group nowadays. I don't like answering people's question or sharing my life. I turn to be so low and speechless. I wonder what would i be if I had depression... Sounds crazy right? haha!


I like daydreaming at school. I dream so much.... I dream I became popular, I was good in sports, I shifted back in a sudden, I knew guitar, I knew drum and etc... I dream about my friends the most. They are good. They've changed me into a wise, active and clever girl. I hate studying at school when I'm 13,because of their encouragement, i'm in love with it! 


Apparently, no one likes to study, do they? because their hardworkingness and self independent, fear crept into my mind all the time especially exam's around the corner. So i became rajin and "strong"! 


i used to hate bringing food to school also, but because of them, i enjoyed bringing snacks and food or sweets, and the serving is like for 6 people!! haha! cause i knew they would be super hungry when teacher was teaching.


they are my besties, my peeps, plus my BFF! they'd made me those unforgettable memories. thanks so much!

Lately.

Idk what should i do. what shall i do? let it be or try everything to achieve it? i got 0 idea. why i have to go and make life seems so complicated? and yes, i did made them go much simpler. but how? exercising? reading comics? shopping? don't care too much bout'em! GOSH! just set me in north pole please! i wanna freeze myself! or do my "dong mian" ! i'm just way too over thinking. man! this guy seriously can ruin your whole life! i mean OVER THINKING okay?! 

oh well, maybe i should continue my "a---choo" or "black bird". they're attention seekers. can't exactly surrender to their awesomeness!

In the middle of the night...

Promise myself that no matter what, I have to stay strong. And this is the last week I can still doing this. No more next time!

I force them out in the night to calm myself down. I swear I've been trying very hard to do the searching, but now I guess its time for me to give up. Cause its pointless. I've got tired of asking, pleasing, waiting and expecting. Really. Sigh... How good if I didn't shifted...

My life now is SUCK! This post probably would be the hardest post I've ever written!

School. Two more years to go. I should be study hard. Cause I know ill be working after my school's life ended.  So appreciate it.

I'm telling you that i will stop putting my efforts on those damn annoying stuff anymore! They're worthless. They don't deserve my thoughts. And they about to ruin my life , too, if I keep letting them to stay in my mind. Then why I have to treat myself that bad? So don't stress, do my best, and forget the rest.

crybaby.

REFUSED. a worst feeling for me. a decision you've made got refused by someone is like a feeling you got beaten down to hell. REAL BAD!


CRY. maybe is the only way for me to solve it. i'm so sorry that i've been so weak. weak enough to let a word to break me down so easily. maybe all i need is time... however, i still can't get why i keep on crying.



i'm such a crybaby. 

things i'm good at...