fretful mi...

i want a creeper shoes so desperately!!!
but it's just too FEW in malaysia. i can't find the type i want. yup. LAME. feel like going out everyday. however, none of my friends are FREE. some busy getting their ANGPAO,  and some not in here. my life would be better  if my sister was here. RIGHT NOW.


today is friday right? (don't really remember the dates and the days. CONFUSED.) thought of shopping with one of my friends, but she did not replied my message. so... called off. there's the only way to solve it.

have a DATE with my peeps AGAIN on this saturday at music zone. i'm so freaking upset that my father is attending a dinner at 8pm in PENANG while i will be back at 5.30pm. now, that's the point! it's IMPOSSIBLE we DRIVE 2 and a 1/2 hours to our hometown. am i right? 20-4.30=15.30. so that means i should go back at 3.15pm? (15 mins for the lrt) GREAT! kt sure will smack or punch me once we met. DAMN IT! and of course, everyone's gonna hate me for the FFG. then what's the point i went back here all the way from penang and doing nothing in here? well, i rather playing monopoly deal with my UNDER AGED cousins than doing housework in KL. thought that i could make it on this saturday... but now? sigh...  i'll chose to stay in penang if i knew i won't showed up on this  DATE. SHIT!

Miaoooo~~

hmm... what should i pose? *trying SO HARD to dig something out of my mind*


oh yeah~ i found ya! MIAOOOO~

to be honest, i hate my phone. i mean blackberry. it is so hard to use it. i have no idea how to download the Whatsapp or even change the email address. so f*cking complicated! plus, im going to spend my cny without a new sneakers. CONVERSE. i've searched them up and down but still can't find the size that suits me. and i was like " WHAT?! i've been looking for YOU since last month. now you told me you are OUT OF STOCK? darn it! " do you know how annoying is it if you can't get something you wanted so badly. however, all you did was let me down. 

btw, happy chinese new year to all of you! wishing you twelve months of happiness and prosperity--a lot of both! do what you want, eat whatever you want and drink whatever you want. but promise me, don't get sick during your wonderful holiday. like what boon said, drink more water, eat more fruits and do more exercises, remember! haha :DD

Opps!

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life. I'm over you. You know, I still shake when you walk by. And I still save all of our online conversations. I still feel a smile slip on my face at the sound of your name. I still think about you most of the time. And I still fall asleep to the memory of your voice. In my mind you are breathtaking. And I've never seen such a gorgeous smile. But I'm over you... Really, I am. I cry almost every night because I know he doesn't feel the way I do. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I will be crying forever.

I hate how the moment I hear your name, even if mention about it, cause a million memories will flash though my head. Anyway, I'm not going to stress out over you anymore. It isn't worth it. I tried and maybe I didn't try hard enough, but it didn't seem to work and it's exhausting. And I'm not saying that I don't want you, because believe me, I do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you. 

给你的。

你还是要幸福 

你千万不要在招惹别人哭 

所有错误从我这里落幕 

别跟着我 铭心 刻骨 

你还是要幸福 

我才能确定我还得很清楚 

确定自己再也不会占据你的篇幅 

明天 开始 这一切都结束 

你如果很幸福 

半夜的简讯我就不需回复 

因为你的悲喜已经有了 容身之处 

我也 能有  

最纯粹的孤独 最孤独 的 孤独

起床后的事。。。

睁开双眼，感觉枕头湿湿的。起床后发现，我昨天是哭着才睡着的。很可笑。因为很久都没这样过了。突然很怀念以前。不过。。。是时候忘记了吧? 久违了，回忆。




就因为你的一句 goodnight 所以我哭了。而且不再会等待你的回信。

Never grow up.

someone got me this before Christmas Eve.

and that time i was like

you know, i've been waiting for it since long time ago. and i keep thinking maybe it's time to change something new. cause my goodlookingbutcacat's lg lollipop is quite troublesome nowadays. for me, it's tough to text someone when i'm using it. some recipients couldn't exactly read the first and second word or even can't receive the message. and obviously, i have to call'em. to be honest, lg lollipop is thin and cute. haha. its skin colour and theme is awesome. so, no doubt, i don't have the thought to throw it away or sell it yet although i got my ideal phone. all i have to do right now is quickly get a very protective shell case for my lovely phone. btw, thanks mom and dad. <3

Everyone uses money. We all want it, work for it and think about it.

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have a busy schedule these days. outing, celebrating and preparing will be showed up. and wow! it's 27 today! time flies fast. Without knowing, it has been more than a decade since I set my foot on this country. i don't want to grow up, i want to live forever 15. cause life is getting harder day by day, and i don't know what to do, what to say, my mind is growing weak. every step i take, its uncontrollable. When life's pains and problems will become tougher than normal. i sincerely wish i never grow up. just stay this simple. just stay this little.

Nothing.

-JEALOUS, doesn't mean i do not trust you, but i'm only afraid of losing you-

It's Merry Christmas!!!

to you!!! and do remember,

promise me. alright?

Wow! what a good SPEECH! I bet you will like wth, that's all? oh man, am i just wasting my time, reading your stupid little bullshit? nae, just kidding! hoho. I knew you. so... don't blame me! cause i really got no idea what should i post on today. and since it's Christmas, i just care about what should i wear and where should i celebrate it. Hoho. I guess i would be very busy(like a bee) hanging out with my gorgeous and pretty little MILLIONAIRES this few days. BUT THE FACT IS, i ain't got $$. ya, I'm serious. Your mind probably just creep in did you just said you're working last last last...last week? are you GILA, SIAO or SOT? omg! don't try to tell me you'd already spent all! didn't you? girl, it's time to grow up. don't shopping anymore. if you want it so desperately, just cover your eyes with a black clothe. then you may be blind for a few minutes or even an hour(if you're a hero). after that, you will be so thankful that your hands didn't full of plastic bags or paper bags or whatever.(that's ma secret weapon! follow my steps! it's so USEFUL) now it's almost 1.30AM, and that means, it's time for me to go to my big and as comfortable as a "TAUFU" bed. so...oh wait! (good night or good morning actually??) fine! got no time to care that much. GOOD NIGHT n GOOD MORNING to all of you. LAST! wish you a Merry Christmas and a early Happy New Year! hope you have a nice and wonderful day with your friends and family!                                                        :)))))))))))))))))))))) 

no title.

烦恼。

我的脑袋快爆了! 

我现在真的不懂该怎么做。

我要打工，我要钱。

就两个星期!

两个星期而已也不能吗?

厚!

这假期难道就不能轻轻松松的渡过吗?

我真的好想放声大哭。

请问谁愿意借我肩膀靠呢?

我也想撕破喉咙的大喊!

请问又有谁能陪我一起对着无边无际的大海大喊一声呢?

我还很想喝得醉醺醺地，不顾形象的疯起来。

请问谁能陪我一块儿发神经，当疯子呢?

我最近的烦恼可说是我活了15年以来最多的一次!

我真的好不明白。

不明白为什么我这么厉害烦!

COMES WHAT COMES MAY.

honestly, i can't do it.

i tried so hard to do so, but...there's noway.

I'm sosososo sorry. 

i let you down. i apologize. 

你是个放羊的小孩，是个杀人不眨眼杀手!

凭什么让我想你?

大骗子! 死色狼!