I hate how the moment I hear your name, even if mention about it, cause a million memories will flash though my head. Anyway, I'm not going to stress out over you anymore. It isn't worth it. I tried and maybe I didn't try hard enough, but it didn't seem to work and it's exhausting. And I'm not saying that I don't want you, because believe me, I do. All I'm saying is I'm done chasing after you.
Monday, January 16, 2012
I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow, and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life. I'm over you. You know, I still shake when you walk by. And I still save all of our online conversations. I still feel a smile slip on my face at the sound of your name. I still think about you most of the time. And I still fall asleep to the memory of your voice. In my mind you are breathtaking. And I've never seen such a gorgeous smile. But I'm over you... Really, I am. I cry almost every night because I know he doesn't feel the way I do. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am, and I cry because I think I will be crying forever.